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Goodbye Kate & Anthony …

Because this post deals with a pretty heavy subject, I wanted to start with something funny.

I have a document of 300+ pages I keep for email ideas and inspiration, and I'd made a note of a You Tube video with a hilarious exchange between "Reverend" Jim Ignatowski and Bobby Wheeler from the sitcom Taxi.

But when I clicked the link, the video had been removed.

Copyright 🙁

Because our existence is so absurd, I wanted to juxtapose death and humor, and I felt that Bobby (played by Jeff Conway who died of an overdose) and Jim would bring some levity to the subject.

I couldn't find the scene, but I did find this quote:

Bobby: "Hey Jim, we were wondering if you could join us for a few minutes?"

Jim: "Well, what did you decide?"


As I write Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain have just taken their own lives.

I hadn't heard of Kate, but I was pretty shocked to hear about Anthony, because from what I could see he had “it” together, then I discovered he had been a major drug addict so that was a hint of some demons …

This has hit me close to home recently.

On my birthday in February I found out that one of my best friends has terminal cancer.

Later that day I received a tearful phone call from my niece who told me she couldn't make it to my party because her partners Father was in hospital after a (thankfully) unsuccessful suicide attempt.

I thought it was rather ironic that my sick friend wanted to live and another guy, who wasn’t terminally ill, wanted to die.

Not long after another friend decided she wanted to “permanently check out’.

This had been on the cards for a while and she had made half-hearted attempts in the past.

I knew her well, but we’d fallen out and drifted out of contact, but before it happened I had an unusual feeling she was in a “stuck” place, so I sent her a short note.

I did not hear back and talking about her passing later, my way of explaining things was:

When you are in pain you have several options:

1. Stay in pain
2. Change
3. Distract yourself with relationships, drugs, work, drama, etc.
4. Check out permanently

But if you take the path of least resistance, like a little snowball gaining size, the problem grows with time.

1. Staying in pain seems a hellish existence, but,
2. Change feels scary and overwhelming, and,
3. Distractions eventually stop working, so,
#4. becomes more and more attractive …

Change & Growth

I'm a believer in Option 2.

I have been in some very dark places, but somehow, I've remained curious as to how “this” will turn out, so sooner or later, in spite of myself, I end up accepting and embracing change.

I feel that life is a constant force and that we are always growing.

If we try and stop ourselves growing up and past our comfort zones towards light, we still grow but back round and around ourselves to end up bitter, twisted and contorted by the pain we are trying to avoid.

The anonymous journalist Film Crit Hulk wrote a great post published in the Observer in response to Anthony’s passing where he identifies the root cause as unresolved trauma and suicide as the ultimate coping mechanism, this was certainly true in my friends’ case = option 2 beats option 4 again.


I saw a post on Facebook about Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain which stated that 8,000 people committed suicide over the last 3 days.

That's a million people a year.

I was so shocked, I reposted the pic on my Facebook page with the comment “Very sad, but the question is ... does suicide solve ‘The Problem’?”

No asked me what ‘The Problem’ is, or if suicide solves it.

Then last night – and this was perhaps the unconscious inspiration for today's post – I saw a You Tube video about the Golden Gate Bridge.

Apparently, it's the world’s most popular suicide spot.

One young man who leapt off the bridge, left a note where he wrote that he was sure he didn’t belong here.”

So, if you're struggling with these thoughts, my question to you is …

Are You Sure?

Are you sure that you don't belong here?

Are you sure the world will be a better place without you in it?

Are you sure you're not loved?

Are you sure no one cares - or could ever care?

Are you sure no one will really be hurt by you not being here?

‘Cos if you're not sure and you stick with option 2, yes it's hard, but it does get better.


Take care everyone.

And if you see someone drowning, reach out … you might just save a life.

wishing you the best of days,


Harley M Storey
"The Life Coach Toolman!"

9 Responses

  1. Canada Mike
    Thanks Harley - every life is precious - at least when born -- when growing from 1 to 16 - but then some go off the track and are no longer precious - some are greedy, selfish and misogynistic and bullying. Thankfully there are people like you to help save these people from themselves and help save the dozens, hundreds or thousands they inflict themselves on. The one's likely to end their precious life. I wish we could do more for these people -- both sides of this coin.
    • Harley Storey
      Thanks for that Mike, I tend to believe that greedy, selfish and bullying people are made not born that way. best regards, Harley
  2. Cam
    Great post, Harley, great message...I tell people who are suicidal to put it off till tomorrow - the day after, if they still want to end it all, which is seldom, they should definitely find professional help...Most have lost the urge by the morning...They say suicidal thoughts take a half hour to really do it; what if we could beneficently intersect that person in that half hour? (Then there's the Sissy Spacek movie where she spends days taking care of her business, credit cards, etc. And folds the sheets perfectly, packing her clothes having chosen her outfit for the event... very compelling film, not the average methodology... Stay well, Harley, and keep those emails comin' ! Cam
    • Harley Storey
      Thanks for that Cam – what you say is very sage advice!
  3. Morry
    In that vein ... I have a good friend that lost his son to suicide and has used that as motivation to help others. You might want to check it out The Lucas Fiorella Friendship Bench | The Friendship Bench Have a good weekend! M
    • Harley Storey
      Yes it's great when we can use what we've experienced to help others :-)
  4. M
    • Harley Storey
      Thanx for that great post: I Jumped Off The Golden Gate Bridge. cheers Harley
  5. William
    Thank you for this article. I am a counselor at an organization that serves the community by giving free counseling dealing in emotional wellness. We are open to any one who is suffering,in pain or who just want to chat.This article has given me another tool that I will pass on to the other counselors. We counsel in areas of trauma,bereavement, terminal illness, relationship issues and any other issue where the community needs counseling.

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